You will never be without

I ache for you everyday, Brandon. Waiting and waiting.... I am making my mind go non stop with the thought of being with you. Are you serious? Dead serious? Completely Serious? 100% Serious?. I am ready to just walk away from everything to be in your arms. I am scared too. I embrace every word you give me and they feed my need for you. I have needs that I never would have known if I hadn't met you. From the moment I encountered you, the first few words you spoke and the way you carried yourself I knew you were exactly what I had been searching for and never knew it! Until then I had settled for everything that I never wanted. After then you are everything I dreamed of. Your age is young but your mind is mature. Are you ready to be settled into a life? No more running? No more wondering? The trials I have underwent to get to where I am at today, I never will wish that path on anybody. Their are many things that are very complicated, sad and depressing. I should really be living on the streets and be completely addicted to meth with a need for alcohol. But the only thing I am addicted to is YOU and chapstick. I am ready to enjoy you and I want you to enjoy me and appreciate everything that will happen in our daily lives. Not because it is necessary but because it comes natural.

These extras that you say you are going to do just for me to come to you are overwhelming, Brandon. I don't need new paint or a rug, but if that is what it takes for you to feel good inside, then thats what it takes. It is over whelming because your need to provide comfort is tremendous. What my feet will feel like on a rug, or the color of paint that my eyes will look at everyday to the hook on the wall. I love you for what you are doing for us.

I want to hold your hand everyday and walk thru life with you. I will provide every emotional need you have and give you all that is in me. I will love your family and treat them as my own. You will never be without. I will spank your bottom when you are bad..:) and embrace you when you are good. <3.....